Front =D

My "pimped" drumstick bag =DD ((inside))

uS, at the party =)

GAhhhHHH...
Tiredafied,sleepyfiedd,terrified,fied fied fied...
hahahaa..i need to sleeeeeepp..
oh well, a lil update hereee..well actually, alot but i'll try not to talk so much keh keh keh.=p
Im still busy with sch0ol, tons and tons of work to finish especially my Moral essays, and training which is every evening and today,I over slept after coming back from school.hahaa..ahh screw training lah, im tired...ZZZzzzZZzzzZZZZzzzz sleeeppppp..slept around 4-5 hours =p
and been offered to play for some bands.hahaa..i was like woooo, in a week, there's like 2-3 bands offering.kehkehkeh..will see how things goes and you know make the best of everything.
been busy plannin for the upcoming "Battle of the Bands" which i'll be playin for 2 bands and yeah, i think my main band gonna win this thingy hahaha.=p
and been busy with IU DAy's plannin and i've got to really plan when's the practise gonna be and gah im broke! yeah back to broke again.dont know what the hell i bought.HAHAA.oh wells, anyone's kind plsss plsssss belanja mee..=p=p kekeeh.
and one more performance, which involves me and my main band SILENT SCREAM =)
in KL on march..heeheee.no news yet.will see how things goes ;)

Haven't been emo for a long time and suddenly, BOOOM!!
emooooooo..hahah..i was emo-ing last night..kay kay last past few nights lah.
been really stressed out and tension and depressed and supresed and frustpressed and watever dat pressed lah.hahaa.
and my dad's always around.danggg..cant watch tv,online or do whatever..sighhh..lifeless at home. =(
my best home companion at home is my phone..=)
and i've been eating like a @#$%^& pig at home..i need to cut down lahh..im getting fatter.LOLSSS

Happening Events...

http://www.youthmalaysia.com/youth08/

Finally.....
I'm back to bloggin after a week. =)
The weeks been an exhausting week, can almost die.=p hahaa..
been busy with sku work work work assignments especially my Moral essays which includes 8 essays,250 words and i've got to hand in b3fore Chinese New year. and yeah i'm so gonna like copy just a LIL..HAHAHA.=p from one of my friend from KL which she took SPM last year.
been busy with training..yes, back to training but quitting football. rugby,track and field and handball is still on though. well, it depends if i cant take the pressure i might just have to quit one or two. and performance, yeahhhh...been called for so many events..gahh..preparation practises and plannin..headachesssss..BIG headaches..
tomorrow, a gig at a big party at some mansion, which includes like 10 songs? plus, im playin for youth tmr and im preparing for the battle of the band comp got choson to play for school plus performing some the interact club's IU Day plus my own band, there's a gig cumin up somewhere next month after my exams..stressing..barely got the time to listen to the songs with work and training and with my sleep time..gosh, i need super long long sleep. and so far school's been okay besides the busyness. oh yeah, me yes me..im the monitor of my class..haha.=p=p how cool.
well, deva as usual will make dumb jokes and make other people laugh inside outside of sku.
oh yeah, ive gotten my new conversee!! ahhhh..nice nice nice!!! =DD

Oh yeahh..from the picture beside you can see how am I feeling right now.

I'm feeling rather so damn !@#$%^&*() pist off.I can't make it to Joel's party which everyone's going. Almost the whole world is going which is a very good oppurnity for me to meet up with old friends and hang around to have fun and enjoy the night..Instead, I got so !@#$%^& annoyed wish the person who can drive but wants to car pull and irritates me. Purposely, asked how am I going to MERU, which is so !@#$%^& far and its like the another end of the world and I told him, NO car, im taking cab.then he started laughing like a !@#$%^&, Gosh, if you don't wanna help which you can help don't purposely ask and add !@#$%^& to my situation lah. i'll trying to find a way to get there and he was like "HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA' all the way.i was like if im next to him i swear tmr i'll be on tv,8pm. Tried to call a cab, but not even one came. called like 3 times still same !@#$% nothing came in front of my house. and mom, being so very kind and generous didn't even wanna send me to some place where I can get a cab to go to the place. Gonna get her sth for mama's day.YAYYYY!!! greatest mom ever.wowwwww...being ignorant and don't even wanna give a damn.yeah, the best mom ever.wooo!! Got so fed up without any transport to go, got so !@#$%^&* pissed of decided that I got no option just to stay at my !@#$%^&*( house. HAPPY NIGHT YAY! And, thank you to those who wants to help picking me up but not old enough to drive a car to pick me.=) so sweet of you all. well, enjoy the party and have fun =D Joel, sorry couldn't come laahhh..no transport lah..even the cab driver didnt wanna pick me up.my house too far.damn.

IM FATTT!!!!!!!!!

okay-okay, this is unusual from a guy but what the heck, im fatt lahh!!!!!!!!!

my goal this year, to be the Sportsmen for 2008 in school cause last year i missed out 2 points to get the title. I got 4th for 200m running and i was like 1inch to be 3rd andget that 2 points for bronze medal..sighhh..

I went back to Labuan and they feed me like anything, as if i haven't been eaing for like 1000000 billion zillion million yearsss..aiyaaaahh..how to keep my body sexy. =(

sighh..been lazying around like a pig at home skippin training and eat chocolates like anythin and sleeping more than im suppose to.hahaha.this has to change!!!... dieetttt dieeetttt!!! burn fatt burn fattt! *WOOOOOSSSHHH*

It's time...
Nerd nerd...yeah its time to be one.
SPM's like end of this year and im like not prepared at all, im still indulge in my lazy-ness world and my ROck n RoLL world.haha.=p
oh wells, its time to cut down somethings like online-ing time, going out, wasting $$ time, wasting time time.=p
oh wells, been busy with my homeworks. gahh just too much of em makes my head wanna burst.

Gahhh....
I got screwed AGAIN by her dad.so yeah....
this time things get very ugly..
got a text from her dad and i was called "stupid,idoit" yeahhhhh....im stupid..if you're smart you won't control urkid too much and give her some space and air dude.
this is the problem with parents who's mind isn't like open and so old fashioned..oh whatever..we kids need space and to show our true colours so that we can you know, be talentfull..hahaa.i've got alot to say bout this but gah, just dont wanna waste my time writing nonsense. to make my point, some parents just really had to be sporting and throw less burden to their kids.

GAHHHH thing in my head...yes yess its called MIGRAINE!! =D
been having it for the past few days already and i don't seem to know what is the matter, and the only way to temporarilly not to have this head bursting desease is to listen to rock music.hahaa.

Well, sku's...not that bad.so far so fat i mean good =p
being a monitor ain't THAT bad afterall just a lil bit of work and pressure from the teachers, other than that it's all good.
Bought a PINK tie for Mr.Woon's (our head disapline master) retiment day tomorrow..its a token of appreciation from the class. went to the mall just now and found a PINK tie and a present wrapper with cow pictures on it.hahaa..so yeah bought it witht he class $$$, plus, I've found the Converse sneekers that i've been wanting for the cream colour with orange lining and apparently its the last pair in Ipoh. There's no other place where u can find except *NOT TEELLINGG!!* =pp HAHAAH..so yeah, and to my suprise Jien Ai's (sry wrong spelling dude) working at the shop she was like "DEEVAA!!!!! haahaaa wah lao ehhh really like that shoes uh, until enter the shop didnt see me, i was right in front of you lahhhh" hehe..then i said."WHAAATT!! u is working here??!!" hahaa.=pp
so Jien Ai decided to like help me a lil bit on the shoes, she helped me to pay deposit which is rm10 so that i can claim the shoe like after i get my pay which is next week =)

and back to sku, our Physics teacher..1st time teaching Physics, and for a start he can't speak English at all..and he uses direct transalation from the Malay language.
and he teaches really SLOOOOOOOOW..so yeah, all the best for my Physics in SPM this year. =D


and one more thing,
Her phone got consfiscated again, i got called from her aunt or mom i don't know who saing that never to text or contact her again.so yeah.
it's not the end but things are getting slow so yeah.


*keep playin the same song over and over again, song from my blog =)

Saw this on TV..woooo leng luissss..HAHAHA.=p

p/s : The artist's my friend. ;)

Beloved Sku.

Goodbye form 4, errr errr hellow form 5??
Yeah, form 5....
Can't believe time just pass in a blink of an eye.
i'm so not ready for this year, she moved to down town (JAYBEE) and we're having SPM and gahhhh sku's not happening like it used to be...happening teachers changed not teaching our class anymore.

ARGHHHHH....
im feeling rather disturbed right now.
she's so far away...
i don't feel like skuling...
i need encouragement...
i had enough of "im okay im okay" when im not okay...

oh yeah, im a monitor in my class.haha.
okay, its not one thing I should be proud of but its the most errr suckiest post especially a monitor for my class. =)
so dang, hectic..
blame the voterssssss....aaaaaaaaaaa..
currently im having mirgain i need more sleep, which every morning im having hard times waking up since like 2 years back.HAHA.

oh yeah...my hair.....
ITS SHORT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no pics.HAHAHA.=p
maybe later =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KL KL!!! BUkit bintang my 2nd home wooo..=DD

last hug before goodbye darwinnaaaaaa... =(

Deb and me =D

she was suppose to be sad cause im leaving...insteadddd...she was SMILLINGG GIGGLINGGGG...=((

DICK and i =D

at the mall.

Deb,Dar,Me,Char..@ the airport sending me off =(

what a dramaaa..they came like 5 minutes before i took off =DD

rushed to the airport with a cab

hahahaa..with an emo song played in the cab hoping to see me b4 i leave =D

Van,Dick,Me,Dar,Char

i was emo-ing becauseeeeee.....i dont know why..HAHA

Nareetha and me.

was texting the lady at JB heeeheee

sophia likes my hair so much. =p

after christmas eve celebration at church.

ED ed, DICK! and me =D

charlotte and deva on the beach =D

THE BEACHHH!!!!!

The stage =)

The deco in the ceiling.

church kuuuu...<3

church church =)

the inside at the pillar.

town.

The Shoppin MALLL!!!! =D Not really, only 1-2floor it is the rest is condominium and offices heheee.=D

The Big mosque opposite my sku =D

My sku!!!!! =DD

miss my skuuuuuuu..

ahhh..those days when i love to fight.haha.=p

WOOOOOO~~
First up..
HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*fire workssssss** *BOMB BOMB****BOOOMMMMMMM!!!****
Ahhh...a year of great pain and suffering. HAha..=p
SPM SPM SPM...yeah the big year for all 1991'ers =)



2007, was a great joy..ups and down..but most of all enjoyed it with the loved one.heheee.=D
friends,family,chick,toys and animals had fun together gether HUAHUA.=D



anywayssss....
The new year eve was great!!! =D
Time Zone baby!! hehehe..was packed like hell.

Spent my holidays at KL && Labuan..

ahhh was greatttt!!!

was in KL met up some old friends and new friends until i fall sick for 3-4days goshness...fever fever feverrr.

and to cut my long story short, here are some pics =)))

WISHING YOU FOLKS A VERY BLESSED CHRISTMAS AND MAY THIS CHRISTMAS BE A BLESSING AND ADORATION UNTO OURSELVES AND AND KICK SANTA'S BUTT FOR MORE PRESENTS!! hahahaha!! =DD

MERRY CHRISTMASSS!!!!!!
HOOO-HOOO-HOOO-HOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Finally....
Ive got the time to go online and blog haha.=D
well, currently im at home as in im back hometown at Labuan..
ahhh, was really busy for the past few days as im catching up with my friends and family here..
almost everyday i'll be ou. LOL and my hse is like a hotel =p
another few more days will be celebrating Christmas, looking forward to it but on the other hand, im not really looking forward to it.She's moving..sighh...
so anyways,
as im having a great time here, will not forget u guys and dumbies and leng luis and leng chais over there hehe=D
will be updating soon..;)

oh yeah, met up with friends who went for studies overseas and studying at the west side =)

LABUANNN!!!!!
AHHHHH..im backkk!!..
home sweet homee...=))


will be blogging ASAP alright.=D
gonna update on everything when i've got the time.heheeee...

WOOOO!!!
CHRISTMAS CHRISTMAS!!! =DDD

Dear Santa Clausie,
you better gimme nice nice presents this Christmas and provide the biggest Turkey on my dinner table back at hometown when im back for Christmas..
and and you better gimme a new Converse =)
and andddddd you better get my Wifey a good prezzie too.HAHA.=p
and to all my friends alright if not ur one of ur dear gonna be on my dinner table =D
dumb santa so fat and cute.HAHAHA.=D

KL here i come!!! wooh0o0o0o0!!!
and Labuan too =p

AHhhh....
first of all.sorry for not updateing for a looooooong looooooong time..been busy working and when i come back home there the man (dad) sitting on the couch relaxing watching tv and i cant online gah..haha and im dead tired and stuff..fuhhhh lack of sleep =)
using this free time oppurnity to get my ass online and update a lil whats been going on.=D
well, work as usual was fun yet tiring, got tan and my skin especially my feet are peeling off to the core gahh it was a pain in the arse LOL. tend to spend too much time in the water that is why.

well, moving on...
there's a BIG problem bout my salary, i came to know that i interpreted the info bout getting my pay wrongly.i'll be geeting my pay every fifteenth of the month so on the 15th of dec i'll be getting last month's pay which is Nov and this month (dec) i'll be getting it only next year..and how !@#$%^&* is dat.=)
as im going to KL and back my hometown with 250++?? gahh really made me pist off..
and what is the point of me getting paid next month while ive got a very big exam coming up and i dont wanna hang so much..gahh..pist man..

So moving on again..here are some pics me and friends took during one of the hang outs....
LOL..randommmmm...
aint really in the mood to blog or to talk right now..=D
wil be back in action soon..and sorry for the late updates and so on yeah.heheeee..

Deva && Tracy Sdn BhD...
Ahhh..another occupation to add in dring the holidays to earn extra cash =D
which is a......PAINTER..hahah yes yes painter.=DD
will be painting Tracy's door for 50 bucks, plus his another door at his another house..hahaha..
another 50 bucks i think..and YY's dad asked us to help paint his house..plus JY's room..ahhh cash cash paint paint.=D hehehe..
so me and Tracy will join forces to make their house a brand new painted one.

The cut...
ahhh the cut at my stomach, its still aching like mad..I cant sleep at night..i cant move properly..cant sit cant stand up properly...gahhh sufferingggg..

Toileteranian Poseranian =D

poser at work work.=p

The birthday boi =) (everone signed on him HUAHUA!)

Arghh!! im fucking pist off....
ain't my day today...i've got fucked up customers in thr park..hard headed mofoss...
gosh im tired and im not in the mood..and she tought i hate her or something..come on lahh...
she called it off and when i acted like emo and cold and stuff she doesn't like it..im suppose to be happy izzit after this thing? need some time lah dude...i mean come on lah..sighh even till now ive got feelings and stuf..wtf..sighh..disapointing day..got injured pushing the shithead head hard headed customer..chiss..i slip and some screws at the slides scratched my bloody stomach..it cut me DEEP..dang..i got to rush tot he first aid and dress the wound up..and at the dry park at the swinging ship, some uncle didn't like it when his son can't enter the ride cause he's not tall enough..he was pist at me..if his son dies who the hell is resposible..bloody day..chiss!!!
most of all, im tired as fuck..
no point thinking too much cause its fucking over.im pist off nothin can be done.
so yeah..




HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIAL...
yesterday was Daniel's bday..we celebrated the Lost World of Tambun Lifeguard way.=D
tied him up and threw him into the pool and toss and turn him around..hahaa..stripped him..
=DD
ahhhh...was fun!! hahaa..=p

Its the holidayss...FINALLY..
well, I didn't really looking forward to it but yeahh..no more books for almost two months and no more waking up early for school wearing uniforms.hehe.Gonna spend this holidays to the max cause next year its SPM!!!!...aaahhh...BUMMERRR..
Moving onnnn...
I'm downloading "The Longest Yard" and "Lucky number Slevin" =D
gonna watch movies at homeee..ahhhh..save a lil $$ =D
work work workk....yeahhh back to lifeguarding tomorrow till the 15th of Dec.
Gonna pump back my wallet with cashhh (CHING CHINGG) $$$

The Weekendss...
The Pong fam (Joshua,Unc.J & Aunt.Susan) , The Thien fam (Ps.David,Aunt.Carol,Caleb & Melody) and my "Ama" back at hometown Aunty.Chris came up to Ipoh oooooon....yesterday! (saturday) Sam and Jon from the Pong's could'nt come cause they've got camps and the other Sam and Tim of the Low's couldn't come either cause they've got something to do at youth sooooo..moving onnn, hope ur not confused bout the family tree thingy haha..if you are, then you is dumb dumb.HAHA! jkjk..
Mom took em to JJ, and then after youth i rushed to JJ to meet em..and my goodness, they were like DEVAAAAAAAARAAAJJJJ???!!!!! OH MYYYYY!!!! your hairr!! WAAAAHHHH!! YOU SLIM DOWN ALREADY UHHH!! WAHHH BERGAYAAAA OOOOO...UIISEEHHHH MANNN....
hahaha..i was like waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat????...=p=p
and was staring at Joshua, goodness, dat dude is taller than me!! babii..stil remember when we were in primary sku, we use to compete who's taller and run the fastest cause we were the top sku runners haha.=p
and and Ps.DaviD was like, WAHH LAOO EHHH, STEADY LAH KAU RAJ (they call me Raj so dont laugh kay! =p) haha..they couln't recognise me..haha..mannn, their eyes were popping out and mouths opened so big.HAHAHA..
brought em to some places where Ipoh has to offer, white coffee,chicken lice bertaugeh (LOL),
biscuits..and more coffee...and more food.=D
me and Joshua were talking bout our stuffs how things been going on and all..ahhh that boy changed mannn..hahaa..he's no more the crazy type that we used to be in our gang the DJDP gang.LOL. well, thats cause he's in a juv Christian sku.haha.still remember both of us made fun of girls and we had the loudest laughs you've ever heard.=p
had some fellowship with the uncles and aunties..yeah was great patching up with em.=)
Ps.david just graduated at the Klang Bible Sku.too bad i cant make it to his graduation due to some performaces rehersal..sad sadd..will be meeting him thou, when i come back home =)
They all stayed one night at my place so was great to see em and hear how are they doing.

Plannings for the hols....
ahhhhh...work work for 20 days, practise practise for a concert,workshop and performances on Dec..will be busy on Dec, will be going up and down to KL =D
and finally, CHristmas.....hahaha..wait and see alright. =)

p/s : pics taken on weekends will be uploaded as soon as i get the pics from Ps.David ;)

Sighh..
yes, im still sigh-ing...
its her that i still miss...
its her that i still love...
guess she ain't got feelings no more...
im no more a part of her life...
everything's gone..
cause i screwed up.

Metaforeeee.....
A catterpillar turns itself into a cacoon and then a beautiful butterfly which glows at night shinning through the way against darkness leading to the correct path.

Kupu-kupu malam ku...
ku tak akan melepaskan mu...
aku menyintai mu untuk selamanya..
<3

AAAAAAAAAAhhhh.....
currently.....
SICK/BROKE/STOOPID/DEAD
Went shopping today after getting my pay...
bought CONVERSE =D Black colouriee..
bought T-shirt....
bought jeans..damn it..
stoopid jeans...black carrot cut jeans...
arghh!!! dang, promoter keep saying its nice its nice..when i try it out at the fitting room was nice but the fitting room light is dim so cant really see a thing so i tought was okayy was nice..and i got back home and tried it on..WTHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! bloody heck not THAT nice..arghh!!! should have bought the dark blue one instead which has more pockets and nicer..shittt lahhhhhhhhhh...
and i bought a crappy leather wallet..stoopid money stupid coins keep fallin outa my temporary wallet so i had to buy one..
im sleepyyy...i need my restttt....
stoopid jeans..will dream of the dumb jeans...
and next week gonna start working again..=DD
gosh was smiling all the way when i got my pay today..and guess what, i only left 10 bucks HAHAHA~!!! !@#$%^&!@#$%^&*@#$%^&* hahahaha...

Saturdayyy....
Ohh yeahhh..2 1/2 family will be stayin at my house =)
some family friend of us. back hometown from KL hehe..
soo yeahh..will be entertainin em with errr errr whatever there is to be entertained.hahah.=p

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wishingg...
To all SPM canidates, wishing you all the very best and dont worry cause Deva here will give you the answers to all the questions alright.=D text or call me when you're in the exam hall and you will surely FAIL =D
sooo, study hard and if really cannot do the questions then only tembak =D
HAHA.
so in conclusionssss,
do ur best, pray to God and kick ass!! =)
and dont copy!
be good bois and gals. be somebody in the future.
like me.HAHAHA!.=p

CHurch Bumps =)

Elijah,Ding Dong && ME

DOing the leg folding thingy while listenin to the sermon =D

I knoww, but...
i still miss you...
i still love you...
wish time would to back..
wish everything could be reset..
wish this could end and we can start anew..
forget bout the past and continue like how we used to be..
wish you would come back...
the heart is yearning your name to come back..please come back..
as the heart is surrender to the dear Lord, all sins done begged for forgiveness and mercy from the above and want things to happen like how it used to be..
and He said, he'll pick up those who tremble and will call him his child. =)
<3

Life sucks life suckssss...that phrase been in my head for 2 weeks till now...aaaaaaaahhhh..
the Deva you all know might just have change, takes tim for him to you know, chill and get things back to the way it used to be..so dont be suprise when u see dat jollly molly thing thang bla bla ble ble blu blu deva aint as dumb as lat time.=)
cause things changed. (results may vary)

Been missing all the school friendss..ahhh..
yobs..munyee.kumara.clearence.daph.steph.jyi choong.waihin.dhong dhong.etc etc etccc...ahhhhh..the gang i started hangging with when i wasssss in form 3.=)
all the fun..all the bday celebration..and free cakes.HAHA!

moving on...
a very very big thank you to the friends who called me during my "zaman kejatuhan" (falling ages) who comforted me..gave some advise...cared for me...etc etccc...lol..THANK YOUU!!....
Jessie a.k.a Dick && Finian, all the way from the east side.
Amelia && Joy, all the way not too far, from KL =)
Charis from Penang.haha! (curi2 online, webcaming middle of the morning)
Tracy, all the way from ipoh garden.(ipoh) =p
and the stupidest annoying always emo friend michelle from hong kong.haha.really appreciate all your advise and scoldings. =)
and the others who texted and msn and talked to me..ahhh cant tahnk you enough.=)

Rugby....
ahhhhh...last saturday was the best rugby game ive ever played.
was the man of the match! hehee..well i let it all out on the field.
ah but still our school got 4th placing in the state.
came back with an almost broken neck with whole body achingg.LOL.
thank God i was still able to go to church the next day.

DOnt knoeee...
well, i feel so lost right noww...
its the feeling where ur in a black empty hole and u dot know what to do..
ahh and all u can think of is life sucks..

and i love her....
and the feeling i had for her is still in me and dont think it will ever be replaced.
so yeah.. shitty??..NO!.
=)
i still love her.<3
and hope things will be alright.
and you know, when things calm down and stuff, hope it will be back to how it used to be,
cause right now, deva's so dead without life.haha.
byebye bloggie..
byebye people..
and happy deepavalie to all who're celebrating and not celebrating, happy holidays and go wish ur indian friends laaaaaaa.=)

p/s : ahh might just not blog for a very long time..vacation mahhh..=)
a far far away long long journey to enjoy my vacation =)

Its been a great whole 7 months with you.
Ups and downs, mountain over mountain conqured, yet without doubt I have never stop loving you.
You've been my only one in my heart and will be for eternity.
7 months will be wasted if the love stopped just like that.
all these while, you've been a pleasing and great companion which non can compare.
never will i forget the moments spent with you nor good or bad.
you've tought me lessons bout life and nothing can pay back what you've done for me.
making me realising what life is all about.
a good teacher as well as a good life partner.
never in my life have ever felt this before.
so loved,
so secure.
the blanket of the cold nights coverred my body,
the textbook of my studies,
the oxygen that i breath. =)
nothing can change how i feel for you.
tsunamiie, earth quake, flood,volcano erruption,when my house got no water, no electricity, when my wallet got stolen, when i woke up at the wrong side of the bed, when i got sunburns like anything, when i got nothing to eat at home except maggi me tomyam flavour, when my exam results are bad, when there's nothing to watch on tv except barney and even the whole world is turning up side down still i'll stand by you,
offering my hands to you picking you up from the ground and say, its alright, be strong cause im here for you and will never let you go.
though the heart is yearning, calling out your name right now hoping for a miracle would happen and hoping that things might be back to how it's used to be, the heart will never fail to stay strong and say i love you.
thank you for everything. its been a great ride and life is all about expecting the unexpectable as its gonna get interesting.
Happy 7th month anniversary Baby.
<3

Ahhh..life....
could it get any worst?
geezzz, it just sucked.
things you need desperately, been a part of your life suddenly just *pooof* gone..
gosh, trust me, you'll die.LOL. ahhh trying to make myself happy again..not workingggggggg...
she's my happyness...i swear she's my everything..
moments like this, i'll be with her. its confusing, i know. no matter what, im here for you.
seaking advice, decision to make....ahhh only she can do it. wise oh wise is queen of my heart.
where'd you go...sighh...
guess this is life...hardest part of it. i'll stay strong and believe that something will happen.
I love you. <3